Turning 24...

30th April:

Birthday dinner @ New York Steak House




Karaoke @ Boys & Girls...





From left to right: Kelvin, Jin, Me, Tzin Wei, Liz, Ronald & Justin

2nd May:

Belated Birthday Dinner @ MU Steak House






Karaoke @ Boys & Girls


From left to right: Ronald, Doris, Liz, Tzin Wei, Jin, Yang, Me & Justin

To be honest, I dreaded my birthday weeks beforehand. I felt bitter disappointment in myself - that I have not achieved enough. Many regrets came to mind, terrible decisions were reflected upon, bad memories made me cringe, sad ones flooded my thoughts.

What has happened to me? When did I become so bitter, so cold, so angry, so frustrated, so pessimistic? Worse of all, why do I always end up hurting the ones I am closest to? Do I unconsciously push them away when they get too close to me? Am I so scared to let my guard down for people to see the true me?

I'm sorry. I may not say this enough and I may not say it to the ones that I ought to, but I am truly sorry. I thank you too, for caring and still trying to stand by my side and I ask that you be patient and understanding. I hope that one day, things will return to some sort of normality, that I will find a balance, that I will find the confidence so that no one can shatter what seems to be a fragile sheet of glass.

I said this in my previous post, but I shall say it again...

Thank you to those that remembered and took the time out in your day to send birthday wishes my way. It means more than you can imagine.