Life through my eyes...

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Turning 24...

30th April:

Birthday dinner @ New York Steak House




Karaoke @ Boys & Girls...





From left to right: Kelvin, Jin, Me, Tzin Wei, Liz, Ronald & Justin


2nd May:

Belated Birthday Dinner @ MU Steak House






Karaoke @ Boys & Girls


From left to right: Ronald, Doris, Liz, Tzin Wei, Jin, Yang, Me & Justin






To be honest, I dreaded my birthday weeks beforehand. I felt bitter disappointment in myself - that I have not achieved enough. Many regrets came to mind, terrible decisions were reflected upon, bad memories made me cringe, sad ones flooded my thoughts.

What has happened to me? When did I become so bitter, so cold, so angry, so frustrated, so pessimistic? Worse of all, why do I always end up hurting the ones I am closest to? Do I unconsciously push them away when they get too close to me? Am I so scared to let my guard down for people to see the true me?

I'm sorry. I may not say this enough and I may not say it to the ones that I ought to, but I am truly sorry. I thank you too, for caring and still trying to stand by my side and I ask that you be patient and understanding. I hope that one day, things will return to some sort of normality, that I will find a balance, that I will find the confidence so that no one can shatter what seems to be a fragile sheet of glass.

I said this in my previous post, but I shall say it again...

Thank you to those that remembered and took the time out in your day to send birthday wishes my way. It means more than you can imagine.

Monday, May 19, 2008

Year 2008 thus far...

Significant events since the beginning of the year veer very little from the devastating news of my Grandpa's death on January 21st. It seems like only yesterday that our whole family was brought together in celebration of his 90th birthday yet that has been over a year ago and it has since been over 100 days of his passing. The mourning period has officially ended - ironically, of all days, on my birthday.

So my birthday...

Thank you for all the messages, e-mails, phone calls and gifts! More importantly, thank you for remembering (even if it was Facebook that reminded you)! *aHeM*!

But before I upload photos from my birthday, I think there's a catch-up post due about now so, let me take you back to the beginning of the year to fill in the gaps or moreso, to post up photos!


February...

1st February: Karaoke @ Boys & Girls





2nd February: Elaine's farewell @ Bernald's House



6th February: Chinese New Year Eve/Ben Lai's birthday @ Seng's House


From left to right: Seng, Raja, Aliff, Ben, Ben's girlfriend, Tzin Wei, Freddie, Melissa & Me

6th February: Chinese New Year Eve "Reunion Dinner" @ Portofino



7th February: Chinese New Year Eve - Karaoke @ Boys & Girls

From left to right: Andrew, Me, Jin, Sam, Freddie, Melissa, Liz, Tzin Wei, Ben's girlfriend, Ben, Seng & Justin

9th February - 10th February: Trip to Terrace Downs

15th February: Freddie's Farewell @ Boys & Girls



25th February - 26th February: Audit Training in Dunedin


March...

21st March - 22nd March: Trip to Kaikoura

29th March: Sunset @ Avonhead Park



29th March: Aliff's 22nd Birthday @ Uni Hall


From left to right: Yang, Tzin Wei, Liz, Raja, Way, Sam, Wilson, Me, Freddie, Aliff, Jin & JK

31st March - 4th April: Graduate Induction Training


April...

6th April: Yoko's Farewell





10th April - 12th April: Methven Training

16th April: Jennifer's Graduation





26th April: Jennifer's Farewell





30th April: My 24th birthday
(next post)



May...

3rd May: Party @ Craig's House


From left to right: Xavier, Kevin, Me, Craig & Chase